Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Secret Santa Blogger Buddy Exchange
As some of you may know, a few of us blogger buddies who have become excellent friends over the years have decided to do a little secret santa exchange this xmas.
Well my gift arrived promptly on Christmas Eve from the lovely and beautiful Lex:
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This girl knows the way straight to my heart. She got me this beautiful photo frame and filled it in with a few photos from our Thanksgiving GTG and our Christmas baking exchange GTG the night before our Santa Shuffle Fun Run, leaving a few blank to fill in on my own:
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And what girl doesn’t love this addition to her wallet?!?!
Thank you, you beautiful and thoughtful girl ;-)
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Jinxed
I’m still sick in some form or another TBD. I should have kept my trap shut the other night when I thought that maybe I was going to wake up feeling better!
I managed to get into the doctor yesterday and she sent me for some bloodwork to check on my liver and kidney function and to check for bacteria, and if anything shows up in that department, she is going to call me next week and get me some antibiotics. Given that I was out for a meal the night before I started feeling sick, she’s also checking for Hepatitis A which can easily be contracted from unwashed vegetables. She otherwise thinks it could be a virus or Gastritis. She prescribed some Zantac in the meantime.
My belly feels awful! I have a feeling that it is not going to be feeling better in time for xmas. Not much I can do about it and I am just going to remain thankful that everyone else in my family is healthy this Christmas.
She also confirmed her suspicions from last summer when I had an ultrasound that I do have Polycystic Ovaries (I hadn’t been back to her for the results). She said that they don’t exactly fully understand what causes it, but they do know that there is an link between that and obesity and insulin resistance. In fact, in some cases, they prescribe Metformin (diabetic medication) to people with PCOS and it is effective in regulating their cycles even though they don’t really know why! It also explains my constant battle with adult acne over the last few years too. And now that I read more about it, maybe why I was feeling so blue last week? At this point there’s nothing to do about about and it’s not serious, so I am thankful for that.
It’s interesting about the link to obesity because I already know of a few people who also have PCOS who were also obese at one time. I was watching the “Where are they know” episode of the Biggest Loser and one of their contestants also had it (can’t think of her name), and emphasized why every pound lost was so important for her to start her family.
On a positive note, I told my doctor about my plans to run the Half in May. Then she tells me that she ran it last year! She was very excited and supportive of me and was giving me a few tips. She said that any race ran in Halifax is tough because our city IS a hill! I love that my doctor runs!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Don’t wanna jinx things, but…
i just had Bob Red Mill’s Vegi Soup with country bread and Vevleeta cheese for supper and I am kinda sorta feeling like it’s settling without too much of a fuss. *fingers crossed*
I have been SICK! All of this time I have been blaming my tummy woes on a few unhealthy food choices, but the whole time I was coming down with some sort of stomach bug! It’s not the flu, thank GOODNESS, but has made me pretty darn miserable for a week now. The thing that sucked the most about this week is that I was unable to to attempt any kind of damage control with adding some exercise when I was sick. It would have made a difference.
I did go to my WW meeting yesterday. We won’t “talk” about that right now, other than it was bad and I expected it and that’s that. I went and that’s really the important thing.
Terri said something that hit my heart right on target as to how I was feeling. She said something along the lines of, “It’s never hard to walk through those doors when you know you’ve done well and are expecting a loss, but it’s never easy when you know the result is not going to be so good. THAT’s when we should recognize you are putting the “P” in perseverance.” It was something like that anyway, but as much as I was trying to be invisible in the meeting, my head was nodding up and down the entire time! Damn could I EVER relate to that!
We’re gonna do this guys, we ALL are. There ARE rough patches for everyone and that is just a fact. I did not expect to hit such a wall that would knock me down like it did the last 2 weeks, but it did. That doesn’t mean that I should feel ashamed or embarrassed (I now realize), because anyone who has ever faced this kind of challenge understands the reality of it and that’s just how it is.
I need to figure out how I’m going to make it into WW for WI this week. They are closed on Saturday and if I don’t get in there before then, it will be a “missed week.” I have the option of going in after work in the evening on Wed or Thurs, but it really would only be for the point of going and I could not pay any attention to the result because:
- it would not be a full week;
- body fluctuations in the evening when I’m used to weighing-in in the morning!
So I could go and do it for the pure discipline of doing it and the psychological affect of checking in right before the holiday weekend, or not go and still have to pay the fee the next time. But that’s the problem though too, because then we’ll have the same problem for New Year’s so that’s two week’s in a row. It’s too much of a time crunch to go before work because they don’t open until 8a.m., so it’s probably best if I just go after work on Thursday both weeks for the pure commitment of it.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Post to Myself Scheduled from LAST Xmas!
Okay self, here it is, here's the recap of how you felt last year at this time when you ate too much, overindulged and gained a few pounds, completely unnecessarily. You had good intentions just as you probably do right now. You were majorly on track in the month leading up to the holidays, in the zone, kicking ass and taking names, albeit, you were sick with a sinus infection that plagued you for months, so you do get a tiny break on the lack of exercise part, but just a little one. Exercise would have made a difference.
You held off in the premature-xmas indulgences pretty well, I have to say, that is up until about December 20th, 5 days before xmas when you stopped tracking and counting all the way until December 27th. Not that you didn't deserve a "break" from that per se, but you let that turn into some excess poundage and a free pass to gobble up too many xmas cookies. That just ultimately upset you, threw you off your game and in hindsight just simply wasn't worth the "break" in retrospect. Those xmas cookies are yummy, especially your favourite homemade chocolate covered cherry balls, but just remember, the yumminess to them only lasts about 10 seconds and the extra, nutritionless calories lasted much longer! Not to mention that you actually felt physically ill from it too! Your body isn't built for that anymore. You're a lightweight now and you know it. Stop trying to roll with the big guys, cause that aint you! :-D
So this year, my suggestion to you is not to withhold from letting a bit loose, but to take a serious look at the "plan" to keep a lid on the goodies. Plan them and stick to it. And also remember that they're like crack and throw your blood sugar for a loop and keep you wanting more - don't fall for it because even though they are yummy, they might not be worth it. It's up to you, really because who knows what our circumstances will be one year from now. I suggest we make a deal with ourselves. How about not making all of those xmas treats this year because you tend to adopt a mindset that believes that it's "now or never" once a year kind of thing, so how about if you miss them, you have full permission to make them in January! I bet that come January you won't want them.
Splurge in other ways that won't leave you feeling like xmas road kill.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I’m Suffering from “Christmasiac Disease”
Last night I turned on a PVR’d episode of Dr. Oz in which they talked about Celiac Disease. It’s the disease that Elizabeth Hasselback has where you have a severe intolerance to gluten which causes all sorts of problems. Well here she is describing how she was feeling until she was finally properly diagnosed and then it starts to occur to me that “I” could have celiac disease because I’ve been in a constant state of boat and stomach upset since Saturday! Like COME ON!!!!!
That’s how much of a mind trip I am on right now feeling “off” the wagon – now I start entertaining ideas like I have a disease and it couldn’t possibly be overeating and consuming junk that my body is no longer used to!
*shakes head*
So, with that said, I’ve declared that while it’s not “Celiac” disease, it is indeed a phenomenon and I’m calling it “Christmasiac” disease and so far it’s not letting up! I really don’t get it. And quite frankly, it’s making me feel harder on myself than I really should be! I have overeaten and had some treats, but I’m journaling it and looking back on it, while I do deserve a big gain on Saturday, I don’t think my body deserves to feel THIS badly for it. Agh!
And FYI: Saturday’s WI is NOT going to be one of those “oh look it wasn’t that bad after all” kind of days and right now I’m just trying to muster up the courage to go, so I hope you all understand if I don’t post a video and/or a photo of it. I am always honest with you guys, but right now I feel like I need to just hang my head down low and go! I honestly just neeeed to go and put an end to it and press the re-start button.
There are no limits to the amount of re-start buttons you can press, ya know.
P.S. I’m running a half marathon in May!!! (In case I didn’t mention it before!) ;-) What ‘til ya’ll see me run the arse off of these extra pounds….just you watch!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Bring it on Plakas!
Are all you Canadians as excited about the @x_weighted challenge starting in January?
Me? Well since I apparently enjoy torturing myself putting myself on the spot for the world to see and since we’re already planning on conquering the half marathon in May, I think why the heck not sign up for this too?!?! I mean, my plan already is to train hard all through the Winter and the Spring in preparation for the race, so why not take it another step further for a chance to win some awesome stuff which includes three grand prizes:
- A weekend getaway and customized training session with fitness expert Paul Plakas at his Canmore Retreat;
- a Toronto makeover weekend by stylist Fred Connors, courtesy of FRED.beauty, Tourism Toronto and The Fairmont Royal York, Toronto's landmark hotel; and
- a fabulous home gym provided by Ultimate Sports Equipment.
- Additional prizes include Detecto scales, New Balance gift certificates, Nature’s Path gift baskets and more
So I guess we can call this the “bulking” phase for pre initial WI? lol
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Operation De-funk
I neeeeeded that run for so many reasons and finally the endorphins are helping to pull me out of my funk. Since Saturday I seriously have felt in a cranky funk and I am annoying myself (think Pink, "Don't let me get me"). I hate negativity, like can't stand it and here I am feeling cranky and negative and then feeling annoyed with myself for thinking that way! It is at this point where I start to think about people who battle with chronic depression. I do not, but every now and then my brain is telling me one thing and my feelings are telling me another and this was one of those times. Like there was no "positive thinking" approach that was going to work. I was feeling blue and no amount of reasoning was going to pull me out of it. It's just how I felt. I'm positive that it's raging cycling hormones that will pass, but it just made me feel badly for people who suffer from that kind of feeling chronically. There are those who I love dearly who endure much worse and I just want to hug them so hard.
Tonight, my workout was an hour and a half in total and it felt great to be doing something positive for my body again. It made me feel a bit better, not completely, but I felt like I had succeeded at re-gaining control over my choices again. Since Saturday, my self-control has felt beyond my fingertips and that is what has sent me into a spiraling panic. It is abundantly clear that it's not being at "goal" that is the ultimate prize, nor is it a even a "successful weigh-in" that is my ultimate reward, but rather, it's knowing that inside I am "in control" of what I am doing for my body and my mind in a positive way.
"You are re-training your brain. You have to teach yourself the difference between how you are living your life versus how to live an attainable, sustainable life that is going to get you where you need to go."
These words came out of my mouth during my CTV News Interview and I didn't even know where they came from, but I have thought about them so many times every since.
This is why I love to blog! It's more than an outlet, it's a log of my patterns which includes ups and downs, the good, the bad and the ugly. It's kind of hard to argue with yourself when you hear (and see) the things that you have said! Who can talk sense into you better than you! ;-)
So guys, I'm telling yas right now that this Saturday's WI will not be pretty. I am a bit embarrassed by that to be honest, although I shouldn't be, but I am. I expect it to be a big gain, but I am looking forward to facing it and moving past it. I plan to stick to my plan (and most importantly, exercise) over the holidays and am very much looking forward to my big new year ahead. In January I start training for my very first Half Marathon and I still can't believe it!
Monday, December 14, 2009
Beans, beans are good for your heart, the more you eat them, the more ya....
On Friday I made my decision to suck it up and go to the WW meeting after all of your comments. Even though your opinions were back and forth, and I agreed with you all and the fact that I was even debating it made me realize that it was important to go. My plan was to go. Theeeennnn at the xmas party, I had a few glasses of wine. Now I didn't have "that" many glasses that I would have expected to feel so sick the next morning as, but my body reminded me that I've changed my lifestyle so much over the years and I hardly ever drink alcohol that apparently I can't handle my booze. I literally felt like I had drank a big bottle of rum or something. I was shaky and felt reallllly sick and dehydrated. There was no way I was getting out of bed because the possibility of getting sick was more than "iffy" at that hour. So I didn't end up getting to my WW meeting after all :-( I was actually pretty disappointed about it. I think I feel more badly about that, than how the wine made me feel. I did an "unofficial" WI at home which wasn't even that bad. I think my scale is about 1.5 - 2 lbs lower than the one at WW, and it put me to around a STS, which was nice to see, but still, I felt badly for not being there at the meeting.
I was glad I stayed in bed though because after a few extra hours of slumber, 39843834 glasses of water and a hearty bowl of pumpkin oats, I felt much better and was ready to start out busy day. My Dad was up visiting, so he and I hit the city streets for a little shopping. Apparently the husband had a xmas gift surprise up his sleeve that required him to be somewhere "alone" at 1:00 for a "few hours" and loved that he was being so mysterious about it! Whatever it is he is up to, something is being "made" and the guy said he would have it ready by Christmas Eve at the latest. That husband of mine is always so incredibly thoughtful and creative, so we shall see what it is!
So that left time for me and my Dad to just spend the afternoon together hitting up a few shops and OH.MY.GOD.IT.WAS.COLD!!!! The windchill was RAWWWWW. Brrrrrrrrrrr! I snacked on an energy bar somewhere in the afternoon and drank more fluids! It was like I was an empty water tank I was so thirsty.
Later in the afternoon we got home and I hadn't gotten any of my xmas decorations done or we hadn't gotten our tree, so the mission was to get our tree! The husband and my Dad and I went out for supper and got our tree. I had about 3 wings, a few chips (appetizers for the table) and a bacon-wrapped scallop dish with teriyaki stir-fried pasta & vegetables (only about a cup). I did enjoy a peice of my Dad's beer battered fish (LOVE IT), a few of their fries and I drank and drank more fluids. I felt disgustingly full, but it was more from the intake of fluids more than anything.
Then we got home, got our tree up and I spent the evening decorating it and getting out the other decorations for the house. I'm about 85% done, but still with lots of cleaning and de-cluttering to do. I never got my xmas cards ready like I had planned. I'm starting to panic!
Went to bed fairly early and got up yesterday fairly early. We had a long day in the kitchen ahead of us because we were making baked beans and toutans for supper (a favourite) and both the baked beans and baking homemade bread for toutans are an all day event. The husband is the "bread maker" in our house, so he was in charge of that, although somehow I ended up in charge of cleaning up the flour explosion that took place - can't quite figure that out still!
For breakfast I had one of my favourites: toasted Ezekiel english muffin with light cream cheese & microwaved egg whites on top with my home made egg nog misto coffee. Later on in the day I snacked on some yogurt with POM seeds, cottage cheese and a few tastes of the baked beans as I had to "test" them for their doneness :-D
I did manage to get out for a short run yesterday before supper. I had my running clothes on for like 4 hours but I kept getting side tracked cleaning this, cooking that (I was also making a pot of chilli for my Dad to take home), but I finally did make it out for a quick half hour run. I was glad I did. I had plans for another lap around, but it was getting dark and the fam was waiting on me to enjoy the fruits of our labour in the kitchen, so I wrapped it up and went in for supper.
For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, "toutans" are a Newfoundland specialty. Basically you take homemade bread dough (usually left over from making loaves) and rather than baking it in the oven, you cook it in a frying pan with some butter (each serving is about the size of an egg of pre-cooked dough) and they rise up and turn into crispy "rolls." They are SUCH a treat.
The only problem with it was that while beans are "good" for you because they are pretty much a nutritional powerhouse in the fibre and protein department, they did a NUMBER on my stomach and any time I have homemade bread (he made 60% whole wheat), it BLOATS me beyond belief, so my stomach has been in pretty rough shape pretty much all weekend! I could not get rid of the thirst and it was all going in but not much needing to go to the bathroom, so today my stomach is reeeeallly expanded and I feel like dirt.
I want to go to the gym tonight for a huge treadmill redemption, but I am also actually contemplating getting my H1N1 vaccine at the clinic nearby my house. They are only keeping the clinics running for a short time longer and I have been so conflicted over getting it. I still am. I think the reason I've decided I will go for it is because I will be doing alot of running this winter and there is a chance that my immune system could be lowered because of it. Intinctively, I am still cautious about this vaccine, but I think it's okay to trust the fact that every doctor in the province has gotten it. I should just put it to rest and get it and be done with it.
Anyway, so I'm going on and on here trying to mumble out my thoughts on the brain. I haven't been feeling particularly "inspired" to blog lately and I don't know what is up with that. I know that it won't last and it will pass. I have been blogging for nearly 4 years and I feel kind of lost without it!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Hot & Spicy & Advice Poll Request
Hot & spicy was just the ticket to help warm me up while getting adjusted to the shift in temperature outside!
A friend, Christine told me that she makes Hot & Sour soup from a package she gets in the international foods section of the grocery store, so I picked one up to give it a try:
So simple and easy to make! I added chicken broth, a cooked chicken breast, lots of frozen oriental vegetable and an egg!
It was good and really decent meal all around! But let me reiterate that it was spicy!!!!
WW Meeting Dilemma:
I need your advice guys. As you know Saturday mornings are my WW meetings. This Friday night is the husband’s company xmas party which includes a dinner theatre and drinks at a local pub. We are taking a taxi home. I may or may not indulge in a few drinkipoos depending on how I feel. My dilemma is that my WI is the next morning EARLY. If I go, I will be most likely feeling like arse because:
- I will have had a few glasses of wine; and
- I will have had little sleep (this tends to make me feel like supreme crap more so than the drinks)
Obviously if I go, I’m going to see the affects of the previous night’s festivities and I’m going to feel more like crap other than the reasons mentioned above.
I’m thinking about using my “freebie” pass for this week for all of those reasons. I can’t see any other reason why I would miss another WI for the rest of the year. Last week I missed the meeting because of the Santa Shuffle, but we still got in there to WI. I thought about going later on to a later meeting, but it’s just going to be worse because I’m used to doing the WI first thing in the day before body fluctuations start to interfere.
So, my question to you guys is: Should I give myself a break and use my free pass and enjoy myself Friday night and sleep in, or am I making a mistake?
I don’t plan on going completely overboard or anything like that, I just hate the idea of being out late and up early to face the scale knowing it’s not going to be favourable! Do I “deserve” the free pass or am I compromising myself?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Daily Cocktail
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Santa Shuffle 5k Fun Run Time!
[You can click here if the video isn’t viewable in your feed]
The Halibloggers had a successful run and I completely forgot to try to get us all in a video at the end. Sorry! :-( But I do have lots of pics to share with you to make up for it ;-)
Pre-game in our “traditional pose” (see here and you’ll know what I mean!)
Tasha and Lynn getting excited and lacing up:
Jaime’s festive socks!
There was a Gingerbread Man! (We could not figure out how that girl got her hair to go like that and STAY that way while she ran! lol
And cutie dogs with jingle collars too :-)
And I LOVED seeing this:
A young family with a young one running together!
Some beautiful scapes of Halifax
…and some “not so beautiful” being a harbour city!
Little J’s first race :-)
Lesley and Lex with little J finishing strong!
How appropriate was my hat?! :-D
Thanks again Laura! That hat kept me WARM before and after the run!
What a great day ladies! It was fun doing something so positive and motivational with all of you beautiful people!
Oh yeah and it was a great way to get my feet wet for a big running season ahead! In case you haven’t heard us gush and squeal about this on Twitter, I might as well tell yas that I have decided to REALLY step out of my comfort zone and run the Half Marathon in the Bluenose this coming May!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! I am freaking the HELL OUT! Not only am I running it, but so is Lynn and get ready for this, it looks like Amy is flying out to do it with us for a very special run ;-)
Did I say I’m freaking out?!?!?!
How wonderfully poetic is it for the three of us to run a half marathon together, each of us having lost at least a 100 lbs, supporting each other every step on the way right here in the blogosphere for nearly THREE years!
Details to come, but I can tell ya that I signed up for the Running Room Half Marathon Clinic starting up in January:
I’m serious you guys, freaking the hell out!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Oats in a Jar & Secrets in the Mail
Do you guys know how long I’ve wanted to have a bowl of oats in a jar??? So many times I’ve finished a jar of nut butter and completely forgot to take advantage of the goodness that is left behind! Kath is definitely an oatmeal pioneer and I’ve had this in the back of my mind for at least a year! lol
By the way, THE BEST nut butter combo by far has to be almond-cashew butter. I just love it!
The mix was indeed pumpkin oats (I still can’t believe that I not only like pumpkin (finally!), but I LOVE pumpkin oats!
The mix:
- 1/3c rolled oats, 1/2c unsweetened vanilla almond breeze, 1/2c water, 1/2 banana chunked in the pot and simmered
- Add 1 tbsp ground chia, splash vanilla, lots of pumpkin pie spice and a pinch of salt with 1/3c pumpkin at the end
- Toppings: sliced natural almonds, unsweetened coconut and mini dark chocolate chips
Okay so I’ve been wanting to share that with yas for like EVER! (I realize that’s pretty sad! lol)
So this week is pretty similar to last week in the POINTS department. I used up most of my Flex early on in the week which wasn’t my original plan because I wanted to save them for Friday night because tomorrow night the Halibloggers are getting together to GTG to get hyped up for our Santa Shuffle race Saturday morning and we’re doing a baking exchange and a pot luck! But since I did my baking early on in the week, a few “taste testing” episodes later and it doesn’t take long to use up your Flex on a few squares! So the rest of the week was depending on Activity POINTS.
I gave the treadmill hell on Monday and felt great! I wasn’t able to exercise on Tues/Wed because I had some more treatments to my shoulder with the specialist which involved many needles! Needless to say, it was SORE. I felt good enough to allow my arms to swing up a storm tonight though and I killed it again on the treadmill! (Then I drunk tweeted off the endorphins telling you all that I love you :-D Seriously if ya’ll aren’t on Twitter, you’re missing out on half the fun!)
I still don’t know where this all came from, this loving the treadmill business? Don’t question it, or look it directly in the eye, just roll with it, I says! ;-)
Soooooo speaking of the Santa Shuffle! How sweet and thoughtful was it that Laura (who is one of my all time running heros sent us a little “surprise” to wear on the run?!!
Keeping it secret ‘til tomorrow night! :-P
(so dramatic! lol)
P.S. I have some reaaallly exciting news in the running department to share with you soooon! I’m just starting to come out of the closet about it. Again, if you followed me on Twitter, ya might already know! ;-)
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Pancakes From a Can?!
Not too shabby eh?
What if I told it they were pancakes from an aerosol can?!?!
Oh yes!
So I saw this on the shelf by the organic yogurt the other day at the grocery store and I laughed out loud. The idea of it was hilarious to me and more so because it is “organic.” Many people assume that because something is “organic” that is a “healthy” choice. As you can see from the ingredients, it’s not all good, but not all bad either. But it is in a can after all. I decided that I had to buy it, if for nothing else, for the blog! :-D
This morning was as good a day as any to put this puppy to the test. I warmed up my non-stick pan, sprayed it with some EVOO and gave it a few “squirts” ? of pancake batter:
Then I started to panic wondering what I was going to do to “healthify” them a bit more and I sprinkled them with sprouted ground chia!
They cooked up quite nicely actually!
I sprinkled a few POM seeds on top and some sugar free syrup for dipping. It ended up being kind of impressive!
I think what I liked most about it was that it’s ready-made batter in the fridge and I can make it in no-time flatif I want pancakes on a “work” morning. They weren’t too bad in the fluffy department either. But all in all, that would be my only reason for wanting to use it. It’s pretty easy to whip up a batch of pancakes if you’ve got more than a few minutes!
Nooowwwwww, moving on to my new LOVE!!!
You might not think so by looking at it, but this stuff rocks my world :-)
It has such a beautiful fresh balance of bright tasting ingredients like ginger, cilantro and lemon grass are incredible and I just love it! The lemon grass really sticks out and it kicks the pants off of regular hummus in the taste department and is comparable in the NI department.
I can’t be trusted around it if I’m hungry at all!
I will most DEFINITELY be needing a new container of this next grocery shop!